…not much poker today either…just some quick HU action where I crushered my opposition. I’m off to catch some sleep now…after all it’s my birthday today…so I should be well rested for the afternoon/evening action (not poker action)…

Happy birthday me…30…I feel old 🙄

Started the session of with a little headsup action to get me going. My opponent was really weak, he caught a good rush early on though…still wasn’t enough to win for him…I overcame a 2.2k/800 deficit to bust him. Then I turned my attention to some 6 handed SnGs and I still can’t catch a break on the bubble. I’m not saying that I was totally unlucky, after all you’re supposed to lose a few there, it was just that every time we were on the bubble it’s a huge stack (who caught good early or right before the bubble) and some other guy scraping around with me. Maybe it’s time to turn down the aggression factor on the bubble…I honestly don’t know…but really I don’t see myself folding AT, AJ, etc in that spot on the bubble…too bad that this week is AJ (vs my AT), AQ (vs my AJ) week…oh well…they can’t wake up with a hand all the time no can they…so I’ll be back trying to grind it out tomorrow…maybe I can finally turn things around and score a winning session again… 😐

…couldn’t get a foot on the ground today. Some of the usual coolers and once I pushed it in with the best of it, shit hit the fan…so it was about time to take a break. I guess I’ll stick to my second favourite occupation. shorthanded SnGs. Took first in three out of four, which was nice. But even more important than the result: I made good decisions, mostly, and in the instances I made a bad decision (headsup with a monster chiplead, twice), it didn’t matter…in one it was over in the next hand and in one I even sucked out, yes, I GOT LUCKY with J8o on an 8 high rainbow board…sure enough my opponent has KK…turn J…right in the heart…god I know how that stings…the difference…I apologized, even if that’s no consolation…

…played a dozen sngs tonight. Won exactly 6 of 12. So I’m stuck the rake. Nice. Honestly, I didn’t play perfect…so I’m not even trying to claim that I got totally unlucky all the time. But really, I should have won at least three or four more. But no. Pushing over the top with KK on a Jack high board…get called by KJo…river J…pushing with 93o on a 83×3 board…not enough against A8o…river 8…pushing with JJ against two undercards…instacall….flop two pair…etc.

Running that “good” is really fun…NOT. Oh well, at least it didn’t send me into tilt- or reckless mode, still stinks…oh well…I’m outta here…

…still running into shit hand after shit hand. I really need to take some time and analyze some of those hands as I’m slowly but steadily shaken to the core. How can I lose all those hands. Am I crazy? Did I make (a) mistake(s)?

I’m really not talking about the usual coolers here, yes, I’ve run kings into aces, queens into aces, jacks into aces and fives into aces all in one session, headsup, case cards were the norm (A9 vs Q9 on a 99xx board…sure enough we get it in and he rivers a Q, etc)…nice. I’m talking about hands like this one: you look down at QQ preflop headsup. You’re slightly ahead in chips and you pop it on the button, your opponent repops you pretty quickly, you repop him….he calls….as I don’t have any history on this player I can only assume what he’s got here. AA? No, he would have repopped me or shoved after my re-reraise…KK? See above…QQ…nope…so JJ down to 22? AK? AQ? Something along those lines is what I went with…the flop comes ten high rainbow with two threes…he checks….hmmm….I lead out pot….he shoves….what to do? I can’t put him on a three here and if he’s got the tens in his pocket I’m willing to stack off…he shows? K3o…sure enough no two outer for me and I’m all but busted….To quote myself: so sick!

Oh well…I guess it’s either that I’m on a really sick cooler-period again or something is really wrong with my game these days…one way or another I’ll have to turn this around as I’m really going crazy here…looking back at the last 3-6 months I can assess the following: Online, I dropped almost 2/3 of my PS bankroll, busted on FullTilt and gave back my winnings (not including the T$)…offline, I didn’t win a single tourney…yes, I finished ITM every now and then…but the norm is that I get busted being a 70+% favourite…

To quote yoda: Meditate on this, I will! 🙄

…and right back on tilt…

It’s just hawesome how you can totally pwn the competition and still get kicked in the nuts again and again…I didn’t even bother to do screenshots tonight…I was too steamed up…still kept my shit together and tried everything I possibly could to bust my opponents….no joy though…one of the typical hands, which is my final hand of the night as I can’t be bothered to play a single god damn hand more…

PokerStars Game #15552948619: Tournament #78722082, $22+$1 Omaha Hi/Lo Pot Limit – Match Round I, Level III (15/30) – 2008/02/25 – 20:23:22 (ET)
Table ‘78722082 1’ 2-max Seat #1 is the button
Seat 1: talisain51 (1860 in chips)
Seat 2: Ingoal (1140 in chips)
talisain51: posts small blind 15
Ingoal: posts big blind 30
*** HOLE CARDS ***
Dealt to Ingoal [Js Tc 4d Ah]
talisain51: calls 15
Ingoal: raises 30 to 60
talisain51: calls 30
*** FLOP *** [Jd 8d Jh]
Ingoal: bets 60
talisain51: calls 60
*** TURN *** [Jd 8d Jh] [5c]
Ingoal: bets 150
talisain51: raises 540 to 690
Ingoal: raises 330 to 1020 and is all-in
talisain51: calls 330 –mmmmm yummy you got 9 outs, I totally got you both ways…
*** RIVER *** [Jd 8d Jh 5c] [Ks] — boom headshot, thanks stars for yet another evening from hell
*** SHOW DOWN ***
Ingoal: shows [Js Tc 4d Ah] (HI: three of a kind, Jacks)
talisain51: shows [Ts Kd 2d Jc] (HI: a full house, Jacks full of Kings)
Ingoal said, “come on”
talisain51 collected 2280 from pot
No low hand qualified
*** SUMMARY ***
Total pot 2280 | Rake 0
Board [Jd 8d Jh 5c Ks]
Seat 1: talisain51 (button) (small blind) showed [Ts Kd 2d Jc] and won (2280) with HI: a full house, Jacks full of Kings
Seat 2: Ingoal (big blind) showed [Js Tc 4d Ah] and lost with HI: three of a kind, Jacks

I’m off…pictures from my vacation coming soonish….

…and I hate it back. God damn it. I should have kept my promise not to touch PokerStars until the new year…guess what, I didn’t and I regret it.

No doubt, it comes with the territory…but how the hell can I lose match after match after match and it doesn’t even matter if I play the 11$ or the 22$ ones? So sick…I’ve been coolered, one outered, two outered three times in a single match, two outered, three outered, runner runnered, etc etc and all those hands are headsup…I didn’t even bother to take a snapshot of all the sick fucking ridiculous cocksucker donkbox lucksack hands…so just a random selection of my good run…

All I can say is that PokerStars has bend me over like a cheap whore and put a whole poker table up my rear end, then twisted it, then pulled it out and slapped me silly with it…just before laughing at me and taking my $$$….so sick, I’m going to puke now and I’m seriously thinking about pulling all my money out of there…I know I know…it probably won’t come to that…but I’m really close to really do it…I just can’t take this bs anymore…every god damn time I clawed and grinded my way up to the next big step (e.g. double my roll) by doing the old letterass grind thing, I get hit in the junk for just long enough that I’m back to square one.

Now, I’m not about to get out the tinfoil hat yet, but this pattern really makes you (me for sure) wonder what the hell is going on. I play hundreds of matches, so it’s normal to see a cooler here, a cooler there, some sick shit, but the sheer amount of compressed sick shit happening to me every single time I’m getting close to permanently moving up…hmmm….weird….to quote Yoda “Meditate on this, I will!”…
Anyway…I’ll log off now before I smash the god damn screen. Best of luck at the tables (my share of it is clearly unused these days)…and have a very happy and successfull 2008. See you on the other side…(this time for real)…

…okay okay, I’ve never ever been so pissed off. I kept my promise not to play a hand of poker over at stars…I didn’t keep my promise to not play at all though…log on to FullTilt and watch how your bankroll evaporates with beat after beat…unbelievable…the only mystery is why I didn’t log off before losing my whole bankroll on Full Tilt…I should have seen the bs coming…after all I got fucked over in each and every match today…highlight of the day: AQ vs K7…he pushes all-in with no pair no draw after the turn…I call with no pair but the best hand…river 7; even better: last match 30+1.5 NL headsup…my opponent is such a jerk telling me what a fish I am and yadda yadda…I chop him down to under 800…then the usual happens…limp…we see a flop of 654…I hold 64…I bet he pushes…I instacalls…he shows K6o…lol…nice!…turn blank…river 5…counterfeiting my two pair…and busto….ty Full Tilt…thank you online poker in general…you have bend me over and put a whole poker table up my rear-end for the last week…ty very much for all that…what a way to end the year…I’m out…and I’m not sure I’ll EVER play at Full Tilt again (I know that is small-minded as such a bad run can happen, but still, I feel like I’ve been cheated…cheated by luck, by FullTilt, by the bs rng, by everyone….in the end it comes down to this: I GOT UNLUCKY…boohoo….still hurts like hell and if FullTilt was a person I would smack the shit out of him… ;))

It’s been a while since I last posted and tbh, I didn’t play that much recently…over the last few days I tried to play a little though and it was horrible. “Bad beat” after bad beat, cooler after cooler…and I’m not making this shit up either…

Summary of a few of those lovely hands:

headsup NL HE: KK vs A7…A, next hand KK vs AA…nada; QQ vs 77….7, JJ vs 66…6; AK vs A5…A5xxx, etc etc

PL O8b: AAK2 vs A2xx…flush for him after going all-in preflop (deep stack); A2KK vs A2xx…no low he rivers a flush; etc etc

Razz: three to the wheel vs 8 low draw…capped all the way…I lose; rinse repeat; rinse repeat…

Coinflip and related bs statistics: update, pokerstars featuring a new eighteen aces deck…but not when I’m holding an ace…they’re switching it for the 0 Aces and 0 Kicker deck in that case…JJ vs Ax…A; QQ vs AK…A; JJ vs AQ…A; 66 vs A9…A; 77 vs A8…A; AK vs 77…nada, AQ vs A7…7….AK vs AJ…QTK; etc etc

60/40 bs: AJ vs KQ..K; AT vs QJ…Q; K9 vs QT…T; K8 vs Q7…7; etc etc

Other bs: AA vs KK…K; KK vs AA…nada; KK vs QQ…Q; JJ vs QQ…nada…; AA vs J9…he flops a straight; QQ vs K6…he rivers a 7 high straight; etc etc

I’m so fucking steamed up now…I guess I won’t be playing another hand this year…ridonkulous shit going on there, this isn’t about variance, this is about bs…and I won’t take it and throw away my money anymore…this is the biggest downswing I’ve ever seen and there’s shit I could have done about it (except logging off after the first cooler of a session…but what good is that?)…so fuck you PokerStars! Thanks for crapping on my christmas present. Once again: FUCK YOU! You won’t be seeing me online for the next few weeks…thanks again…for nothing.
On a brighter note: Happy holidays…and if I really stick to my promise: A happy new year! Cya on the other side…and better luck at the tables!

…since I last played online. Almost a month since I last played on Stars. Crazy how time flies. Today I did a little “chill out day” as the whole thesis thing is wearin me down. So, apart from catching up on some of my favourite tv shows (Heroes, Las Vegas, etc), I got some poker in.

Started off with a 5 for 5 run in headsup NL HE. Dropped the next 4 in a row. Then won 4 in a row. Then lost one and called it a night 9-5 in total. Not too bad considering my recent abscence from poker in general…I guess you won’t be seeing too much poker reports over the next few weeks (as I gotta finish my thesis until christmas)…but who knows…maybe a game here or there…we’ll see how it goes…take it easy and good luck at the tables…